i have never really felt strong or secure in myself. i dont know where i want to be in a week or in a month or even years. what i have now, what i can hold in my hands right now, that is what matters to me. i may be a blank paper, but not just anybody can decide what should be written on me, because everyone sees it from their point of view, even if they pretend its for my own good they act, its purely for their own agenda they act. i am no fucking doormat to step on. why should i back away and just accept what others want? everybody is responsible for their own actions.


i hate you so fucking much right now, you had no right to do what you did. selfish bastard.